Dear Rose # 27 - Surviving a spiky week

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Dear Rose,

I’ve had another awful week. Part of me hates admitting it because it feels like a cruel joke, and another part of me feels like it’s important to say because toxic positivity never helped anyone! (Oh, the irony that I just wrote the word toxic.)

One part of my awful week was an ammonia spike in my fish tank. Ammonia is super toxic to fish. My two new fish died (RIP Darlene and Bold), and I had to test the tank constantly to make sure it didn’t get worse. I think it’s going to be okay now (seven days later!!), but the "Little Miss Perfection" who lives inside of me spent a lot of the week beating me up for being so stupid—when in reality, this is something that commonly happens to new fish keepers.

On top of that, I’ve had a sinus infection this week, so physically I felt like crap, too.

Today (Friday) is my business admin day and I had a long list of things to do. Instead, I put on my “Sing Out Loud” playlist at high volume and sang my heart out while I made a new note for my students. It felt so good to sing and dance around the house and to flex my creative muscles.

Now, I’ve tucked myself into bed for the rest I’ve been craving all week even though it’s 3.15pm.

Love, Em xx